Why you work so hard??

Assalamualaikum!!Konnichiwa!!Happy Ramadhan!!

       10 days left before the end Ramadhan. So how's my fellow readers' Ramadhan?? Is it better than last year?? Or is it the other way round?? 10 days might be short but we still have the chance to make these 10 days as the turning point in our life. Make it this as the moment you change into a better Muslim.
      Actually, I'm not going to write about Ramadhan in this entry as I believe that will be a lots of bloggers who will write the same. I'll share with you about my current final year research project. As you know, I'm one of Material Science and Technology Engineering students in Nagaoka University of Technology. And since September 2011, I have joined the Polymer Material Laboratory. So in my lab, we do experiment on monomer and polymer. Friends,you can check out the lab's website here. (Sorry as the website is in Japanese)
      So currently my theme is about the synthesis and polymerization of 1,3-butadiene derivative containing hydroxyl group. To make it short, it takes a lot of time to synthesize 1,3-butadiene derivative containing hydroxyl group. I'll share more about my final year research project in my next entry.
      As it takes a lot of time, sometimes I need to stay back at the laboratory until midnight. There is one day that I went home from the laboratory at 1.30 am. So people who around me keep asking about my research. Why I work so hard on it?? It is just a final year research. Is not like I'm going to receive a Nobel award or so on.
     But there's one thing that I believe that makes me doesn't want to give up. I believe if I do my research for the sake of Allah, insyaAllah He will make my work easier. And I believe that He look and my effort not at my success. So please dear friends!! Please try to understand about this. Do something for the sake of Allah. Think again what is your intention of doing all those works?? Is it for the sake of human or the sake of Allah.
     So for a wrap up, let me share one of my favourite quran verse.

Say, "Indeed, my prayer, my rites of sacrifice, my living and my dying are for Allah , Lord of the worlds.(6:162)

Have a nice blessing Ramadhan and Assalamualaikum.



From Nagaoka with love.

Summer holiday is here

Assalamualaikum!!
Konnichiwa!!
Salam Ramadhan Al-Mubarak!!
Its been 4 months since my last entry.
Sorry..sorry...sorry..
I was busy with my studies and final year project.
Alhamdulillah, at last I can finally take a deep breath and relax for a while.
Hmm...
Where should I start my entry??
About my final year project??My labmates or my life??
Hmmm...
It is not easy to wrap my life in one entry.
IMPOSSIBLE!!!!
NO!!
So, as I'm quite busy with my final year research, I didn't realize that there's only 11 days left before Syawal.
Feel really sad as Ramadhan going to left me again.
Hope that this is not my last Ramadhan.
Alhamdulillah, although I 'm busy with my experiment, analyzing sample using NMR(which really takes a looooooong time), I am able to join salah tarawih here with the jamaah.
Okay lah I share about my Ramadhan with my readers.(Sorry for using Manglish.Really feel bad about this ): )
So this isn't my first time spending my Ramadhan here but this is my first time praying tarawih with jamaah here.
When I was in Kosen(Nagaoka National Technical College), it was hard for me to travel to Gidai(Nagaoka University of Technology) and pray tarawih with Muslims in Gidai.
Alhamdulillah, praise to Allah that He give me this chance to join the Muslims here celebrating Ramadhan.
So the tarawih imam is a Pakistan student in Gidai.
Feel quite different as the imam is from Pakistan but Alhamdulillah its nice to pray tarawih together with Muslims here in Nagaoka.
By the way this year will my very first year celebrating Syawal without my family.Sob3
I bet I'm going to cry when I call my mama on the 1st of Syawal.
Opssie.
Shouldn't talk about Syawal yet.
So I'm going to wrap up first.
Catch you guys later in my next entry.Insyaallah.
Have a nice and bless Ramadhan.
Assalamualaikum.

Lots of summer love from Nagaoka <3<3<3

Spring is here..Yeay!!

Assalamualaikum and Hello my dear readers.
I'm so sorry as lately I didn't post much.
Quite busy with my life as a final year student.
Weekdays I'm busy with my final year research.
So,I only have weekends to relax and spend my precious time with my dearest friends especially with my Estradas.
(I should make a special entry about my Estradas later.Promise!)
So last Sunday we already had our MADINA(Malaysian Di Nagaoka)'s welcomed party.
Alhamdulillah it went smoothly.
Its nice to see new faces in Nagaoka after almost 5 years here.
So it was my 5th welcome party in Nagaoka and it was the 1st time I organized it with my friends.
And yesterday my friends and I went to Takada Park to enjoy the cherry blossoms.
It was nice to have road trip from Nagaoka to Joetsu with dearest friends.
Someone once told me that when you are apart from your family,friends become your family.
So we really enjoy our road trip and the cherry blossoms so much.
The cherry blossoms were awesome and beautiful.
I did took few pictures with my iphone 4 and canon sx 30is but most of the pictures I took it with my iphone 4.
Later when I'm free I'll post some pictures here in my blog but if you are interested to see my pictures in nearest time you can follow my instagram.
By the way my instagram username is atiqahjasni.
You are welcome to follow my instagram.
I think that's all for now.
Good night.Sleep tight.
May this coming week will become a productive week to us.Insyaalah.


Xoxo.Love is in spring's air.


Atiqah Jasni(^_^)

April Snow

Alhamdulillah
After almost 4 years I'm in Nagaoka this year He grants my wish.
Its still snowing in Nagaoka although its already April.
Somehow I really enjoy snow so much.
Looking at the snow falling from the sky makes me calm and realize how great He is.
I'm grateful as He gave me the chance to further my study here in Nagaoka.
Nagaoka isn't a big city like Sendai and Tokyo but its suitable place to study.
In my opinion the environment are great and peaceful.
This is the reason why I want to stay here after finishing my diploma at Nagaoka College of Technology.

By the way that's our apartment carpark.
Full with snow again.
And that's our tiny car.
Thanks housemate for taking me here and there in that tiny car.
So last night I've decided to bring back a lot of kitchen equipment instead of a car.
AP??
I don't really care about it anymore.
I'm thinking of bringing back a Kitchen Aid Stand Mixer and other baking stuff.
You can call me a weirdo as I'm not using my AP and bring back kitchen equipment instead but I'm not using your money to buy all those stuff and I'm not giving you any trouble either.
So shut your mouth.
Sorry as I'm being a little emotional.
I've started to buy kitchen utensils since my first year here in Japan.
So you can imagine how many of them.
Unfortunately last month I accidentally broke my hand mixer.
So I need a new one in order to make and bake cakes/cupcakes.
Lately I'm using the old fashion of whisk which I call it 'keprok' to mix the batter.
Okay.It sounds 'kampung'.
But your grandmother use 'keprok' to make beautiful fluffy 'kueh bahulu' or 'kueh bakar'.
So I brought the 'keprok' and also my mom's precious 'loyang kueh bakar' from Malaysia which I'm going to bring it back once I've decide to go home for good.
I think that's all for now.
Have a nice weekend readers.
Assalamualaikum.
Lots of snow and love from Nagaoka.

Its April but still snowing

Assalamualaikum and Happy Friday to all readers.


It's already 6th April 2012.
The sakura flower should be blooming soon but unfortunately its snowing today.
Last Tuesday night there was a strong here in Japan.
Quite frightening and I couldn't sleep well.
Luckily my junior,Azzuin and my housemate,Filzah were here with me.
Fuhhhh.
And that night I was worried about someone that I shouldn't care.
Oh my heart!
Why couldn't you be strong??
So lately as I'm supporting my housemate's diet program I'm making(trial and error) a lot of healthy cooks.
As an example,last night we were having vegetable soup and tofu fritters for dinner.
Tonight we are having grilled fish,mashed potatoes,baked beans and boiled vegetables.
Really healthy right.
Besides we are going to have our medical check up soon.
So I need to be healthy and fit.
And lately I sleep quite early.
I sleep around 11 pm and wake up around 7 am.(can't pray as I'm having my period)
I'm getting older and this year I'm turning 24 years old.
I need to take care of my health and especially my skin.
Need to have a nice and healthy skin.
And also my teeth.
Although you are looking good and stylish but if your teeth is yellowish and you have bad breath...
Arghh...just can't stand it..
So its all for now.
Before I end my entry I just want to share with all of you that I've just finish writing my new Malay poem entitle 'Puisi Buatmu'.
Have a nice friday night bloggers.
Lots of love from Nagaoka.
Mmmmmuahhhh...

Lets give a hand:Blood donation

Assalamualaikum wbt to my readers


Seems like in 2 more days April its coming.
April means spring season.
Love spring season as I'm able to go out with my friends and have picnic with them.
Besides that I'm also can dress up in more colourful clothes.Weee..
So back to my topic.
Yesterday me and my friend went to Nagaoka Blood Donation Center.
So I thought I could donate my blood yesterday but unfortunately due to my 30 days of cleanse diet program my hemoglobin level was to low.
I'm so frustrated that I'm unable to do so.
Felt like my heart was like ripped apart.
So in order to donate my blood in another 3 months as it takes time to increase hemoglobin levels in my system I'm saying goodbye to my diet program.
Although I wasn't able to donate my blood yesterday I still got a cute pen from the blood donation center.
Its fun to donate blood in Japan as I'm not only able to receive free gifts but I'm also able to 'lepak-lepak minum-minum percuma' at there.
Alhamdulillah yesterday I was able to invite someone to donate blood with me although she also unable to donate her blood as the nurse wasn't able to find her veins.

By the way it wasn't because I wasn't able to donate my blood that made me so frustrated but yesterday its already a month since he walked away from my life.
I shouldn't talk about this.
So I'm going to stop dieting and have a healthy life in order to donate my blood in the future.
Perhaps this is going to be my last entry in this month.
Good night my friends.
Wassalam.

happy anniversary!!!

Assalamualaikum to my dearest reader..


This entry will be a very short entry.
Tomorrow its 22nd March 2012.
Its already a year since the first time I donate my blood at Nagaoka Red cross Blood Center.
It was 11 days since the big earthquake and tsunami in Japan and I was move to help the victims.
I might not have a lot of money to donate but blood donation was the least that I could do on that time.
It was the first time I felt that I was really helpful to other people.
400ml wasn't much but it can help a person who really need blood on that time.
It was a really good experience and from that moment I swore that I won't do anything stupid that might hurt myself in the future as I want to help more people.
So in Japan,a woman can only donate twice a year.(if you donate 400ml of blood)
I'm thinking of going to donate my blood tomorrow but unfortunately in the evening I have my laboratory research party.
Seems like I need to postpone to another date.
In the future I would really like to donate my organ too.
These two is my reason why I live a healthy life.
Perhaps there are some people who think that I'm not needed in their life but there are others who might think they need me in their life.(ayat pusing-pusing pula)
Happy Anniversary I wish to me and blood donation.
Insyaallah in the future I'll keep on donating my blood whether in Japan or in Malaysia.
So that's all for tonight.

a picture of my blood donation card and gift

Assalamualaikum.

good bye..break up!!ouch!

Hi!Howdy!Hullo!
I'm not supposed to write and share this with my dearest reader.
Somehow its hard to keep everything by myself.
By the way to Mr You Know Who,I'm not going to mention even a bit about you.
So you don't have to worry although a bit.
Today is 13th March 2012.
It almost 15days since you left and walked away from my life.(or the other way round.Perhaps I left and walked away from you).
I admit that its all my fault that all of these seperation happened.
Until now I still miss you but it doesn't mean that I want you back in my life.
I miss those moments that I've spent with you.
All those sweet and bitter memories.
Its funny but I do miss those moments we when argue about small things.
Its easy to admit the fact that we are not together but its hard to face the reality that now we are like strangers.
Regret??
I don't regret knowing you and be with you for all these times and about this break up.
Its been written in our destiny we aren`t meant to be together.
If I have another chance somehow I want 'this' to end nicely just like when we decided to start 'this' thing.
I'm sorry as for all these times I didn't treat you the way I should and I'm sorry for not being a nice girl to you.
By the way I'm sharing this with my readers it doesn't mean that I'm ready to open my heart for someone else yet.
For the time being I'm happy with my life now and I'm focusing on my studies.
I want to chase my dreams before I think about those hearts and feelings again.
Again to Mr You Know Who,you doesn't need to be guilty if I don't find or I'm not finding or I'm not going to be with someone in the future.
Its all going to be my choice and I'm going to be responsible with my decisions.
Getting together with you again!Hmmm..
Just let the time decide about this matter.
I'm not regretting and neither hate you but I don't want to decide about this thing.
It's hard to predict our future.
So to Mr You Know Who,I hope you'll be happy,success in the future and gain hidayah from Him.
And I hope you'll find a woman who will complete your life in the future and live happily with her.
All the best to you Mr You Know Who.

Adios!Sayonara!Cheerio!


p/s:just realize that he such a special person to me as I wrote about him in my blog.oh no! !(o_o;)

you know my name not my story(part 1)

Hello and Assalamualaikum


Its been a while since my last post.
And there's a lot of thing that I've experienced lately.
By the way,last January until mid of February I have went back to Malaysia for holiday to meet with my family and friends.
Everytime I went back I must went to Melaka just to have cendol.
This time we(my Ayah and I) went to Melaka for a few times just to enjoy cendol and rojak.
Thank you so much Ayah for giving me a ride and taking me there.
Thank you also to my Mama for all your delicious cooks.
Although it was short I did really enjoy my holiday in Malaysia.
Now I'm back in Japan and need to revise for my upcoming exam.
By the way,I've decided to further my studies until masters.
So I need to sit for exam on this coming April.
There's a lot that I need to cover but I only have less than a month.
Oh no!!!
Scholarship??
Yup,it's one of the reason why most of my friends didn't decided yet whether to further their studies until masters or not.
There's not a lot of scholarship but I believe in "rezeki dariNya".
If there is my "rezeki" Insyaallah there will be scholarship for me.
Seems like I need to go to the grocery store before it close.
Catch with you guys later.
Have a nice day ahead.
And by the way Happy International Women's Day to all beautiful and gorgeous women out there.
Enjoy a song by Helen Reddy "I Am Woman".


Wassalam.

holla!!!

Dear diary,


It's only 4 days left before I'm going home for holiday.
Preparation???Hmm...I've bought few presents for my cutie and adorable Adam but I still don't know what should I buy for my two sisters as their birthday are just around the corner.
What should I buy for a sister who are turning 29th and 25th this year.
Arghh...lack of idea..
Honestly I'm not really excited to go back this time.
I don't know why.
Perhaps this is my first time going back during winter + spring holiday.
Those past 3 years I used to spent my spring holiday here.
Going vacation around Japan that's what I used to do but this time I'm going back home.
I do miss my family but a part of me ........................
Is like there's a hole or empty part in my heart.
By the way I'm listening to Selena Gomez's song while writing this entry.
Besides foster the people's song I do also enjoy Selena Gomez's song too.
A part of me thinks that this year might be the last year I'm here but I'm not ready yet to go home for good.
What should I do??What should I do??
Should I focus on my final year then later I think about my future or should I decide and think now what I want to do in the future???
Sometimes I do wish that someone can make decision for me.
Hmmmm...


By the way I miss writing so much.
I hope that I can write new entries in this blog continously.
I miss writing poems.
I miss debate too.
I miss writing short stories.
I miss dancing.
I miss everything that I've left since I came here.
I hope that I can enjoy those things this year.
And honestly I miss the old me.
The one who is reckless,fun,all out in everything she does,happy go lucky,the girl who is craving for knowledge,who loves to dress up and read.
Those characters fade away from myself few years ago and now I'm trying to be that girl again.
I'm not saying that I don't like the way I am now but I feel less stress when I be 'that' girl.


I'm turning 24 this year but there's still a lot about myself that I　don't really understand.
It should be that I had enough of confessions of teenage girl and should be more mature and think wisely but the truth is I don't really understand or know about what I really want in my life.
I want to get married and have my own child but I'm not acting like I really want all of those things.
I want to be happy with my love ones but I don't act that I really fight for my love.
I want to success in my life but I don't work hard enough for what I want.
I should work harder this year to achieve what I want.
It's easy to say and decide but it's hard to act like what we've said.
Although with all these dramas in life I need to act and decide for myself as in the '"it's up to me".
Happy Tuesday bloggers!!!
xoxo...

Life and Love...Love and Life???

Part 1
Life is like a rollercoaster.
There are always ups and downs in life.
No one's life in this world is perfect.
Although sometimes life doesn't turn out the way you plan it doesn't mean it's the end of the world.
As a Muslim we need to believe that it's a test from HIM when our plan in life doesn't turn out the way we want.
Honestly I've once in my life when I almost gave up my life but with my family,friends and love ones support I've gained my spirit to continue and not wasting my precious time in life.
It's true when people said that life is too short to waste.
Cherish every single moment and seconds that you have in your life.
That's why I do now.
I cherish and appreciate every single moment that I spend with my love ones even in a short time.


Part 2
I don't really agree when people said that is a waste of time knowing and falling in love with a wrong person.
My reason is you won't know that the person is the wrong person until you know about their attitude and behavior.
You won't know the person is the wrong person by looking at their style.
Yup,sometimes I do agree that your style or the way you dress shows your personality.
But you can't judge people by their looks.
Maybe they have this rugged style but it doesn't mean that they are a criminal.
"Don't really judge a book by it's cover"
At least you need to try read few front pages or the book review before you can judge the whole book story.


I think its enough for now as I hardly can let my eyes wide open.
Before I end up my entry I wanna share one of my favourites song from Glee.
See you next time my dearies.
XOXO.


Oyasuminasai....Love Atiqah