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Dear diary,


It's only 4 days left before I'm going home for holiday.
Preparation???Hmm...I've bought few presents for my cutie and adorable Adam but I still don't know what should I buy for my two sisters as their birthday are just around the corner.
What should I buy for a sister who are turning 29th and 25th this year.
Arghh...lack of idea..
Honestly I'm not really excited to go back this time.
I don't know why.
Perhaps this is my first time going back during winter + spring holiday.
Those past 3 years I used to spent my spring holiday here.
Going vacation around Japan that's what I used to do but this time I'm going back home.
I do miss my family but a part of me ........................
Is like there's a hole or empty part in my heart.
By the way I'm listening to Selena Gomez's song while writing this entry.
Besides foster the people's song I do also enjoy Selena Gomez's song too.
A part of me thinks that this year might be the last year I'm here but I'm not ready yet to go home for good.
What should I do??What should I do??
Should I focus on my final year then later I think about my future or should I decide and think now what I want to do in the future???
Sometimes I do wish that someone can make decision for me.
Hmmmm...


By the way I miss writing so much.
I hope that I can write new entries in this blog continously.
I miss writing poems.
I miss debate too.
I miss writing short stories.
I miss dancing.
I miss everything that I've left since I came here.
I hope that I can enjoy those things this year.
And honestly I miss the old me.
The one who is reckless,fun,all out in everything she does,happy go lucky,the girl who is craving for knowledge,who loves to dress up and read.
Those characters fade away from myself few years ago and now I'm trying to be that girl again.
I'm not saying that I don't like the way I am now but I feel less stress when I be 'that' girl.


I'm turning 24 this year but there's still a lot about myself that I　don't really understand.
It should be that I had enough of confessions of teenage girl and should be more mature and think wisely but the truth is I don't really understand or know about what I really want in my life.
I want to get married and have my own child but I'm not acting like I really want all of those things.
I want to be happy with my love ones but I don't act that I really fight for my love.
I want to success in my life but I don't work hard enough for what I want.
I should work harder this year to achieve what I want.
It's easy to say and decide but it's hard to act like what we've said.
Although with all these dramas in life I need to act and decide for myself as in the '"it's up to me".
Happy Tuesday bloggers!!!
xoxo...

Life and Love...Love and Life???

Part 1
Life is like a rollercoaster.
There are always ups and downs in life.
No one's life in this world is perfect.
Although sometimes life doesn't turn out the way you plan it doesn't mean it's the end of the world.
As a Muslim we need to believe that it's a test from HIM when our plan in life doesn't turn out the way we want.
Honestly I've once in my life when I almost gave up my life but with my family,friends and love ones support I've gained my spirit to continue and not wasting my precious time in life.
It's true when people said that life is too short to waste.
Cherish every single moment and seconds that you have in your life.
That's why I do now.
I cherish and appreciate every single moment that I spend with my love ones even in a short time.


Part 2
I don't really agree when people said that is a waste of time knowing and falling in love with a wrong person.
My reason is you won't know that the person is the wrong person until you know about their attitude and behavior.
You won't know the person is the wrong person by looking at their style.
Yup,sometimes I do agree that your style or the way you dress shows your personality.
But you can't judge people by their looks.
Maybe they have this rugged style but it doesn't mean that they are a criminal.
"Don't really judge a book by it's cover"
At least you need to try read few front pages or the book review before you can judge the whole book story.


I think its enough for now as I hardly can let my eyes wide open.
Before I end up my entry I wanna share one of my favourites song from Glee.
See you next time my dearies.
XOXO.


Oyasuminasai....Love Atiqah

Tentang Cinta I

My first poetry that I wrote while I'm studying in Japan and will always be my favourite one.

Teman

Ku juga seperti dirimu

Mendambakan cinta seorang insan

Yang bergelar ADAM

Namun bukan cinta duniawi

Yang kuimpikan

Tetapi cinta kerana Ilahi

Cinta yang kekal abadi

Hingga ke syurga

Seperti cinta Adam dan Hawa

Walaupun angkara Iblis

terpisah menderita

Namun bertemu kembali

di dunia

Ku tidak impikan cinta Romeo dan Juliet

mahupun cinta Laila dan Majnun

Biar ada yang berkata

itulah cinta Agung

Namun jika tidak berpaksikan

cinta Ilahi

Hilang keagungannya

Fikirkanlah teman

Cinta mu itu cinta duniawi

Atau kerana Ilahi

Fikirkanlah ke mana hala tuju cintamu

Hingga ke syurga

atau sementara sahaja

Janganlah kau sia-siakan fitrah dari Ilahi ini

Kerana cintamu lahir dari cintaNYA

(2009/06/18 17:37 pm)

Tentang Cinta II

Another Malay Language poetry that I've write few years ago and I love to share with my beautiful readers.

Cinta Ilahi itu ibarat sutera
Walaupun lembut namun utuh dan teguh
Cinta Ilahi itu tidak melalaikan
Malah memutikkan kerinduan kepadaNya
Dan menambahkan ingatan kepadaNya
Cinta Ilahi juga
dilimpahi ketenangan, kedamaian dan kejujuran
Bukannya kepura-puraan dan keterpaksaan
Bukan juga bersifat kemilikan
Dan tiada juga keraguan serta kepalsuan
Cinta Ilahi juga tidak mengelisahkan
Dan juga tidak menerbitkan
Kecemburuan, hasad dan dendam
Itulah cinta Ilahi
Yang terbit dari sifatNya
Yang Al-Wahhab
Yang Ar-Rahman
Dan Ar-Rahim

(21/7/21 04:00am)

Hi Readers!!!

Assalamualaikum dear my blog readers.I'm back with a new blog and wit a new spirit.I know this is an old poet that I've post and write in my old blog but I still want to share this with my readers.

Akulah Insan Yang Lemah

Tenggelamnya matahari

Tanda maghrib menjelma

Seruan Ilahi yang keempat memanggil umatnya

Supaya tidak alpa pada Sang Pencipta

Tatkala penat pulang bekerja

Tidak sampai seper dua belas jam

diperuntukkan untuk menghadapNya

Namun sekelompok umat

melengah-lengahkan masa

lebih asyik bergurau senda,bergelak ketawa

bergaul bebas sehingga lupa pada seruanNya

Di satu sudut kelihatan seorang hawa

menitiskan air mata sambil merintih kepadaNya

Hawa itu sedih melihat teman-temannya

Yang semakin terpesong dari titian siratNya

Oh Tuhan adakah aku insan yang lemah?

Kerana hanya mampu mencegah kemungkaran

dengan hati yang kecil ini

Atau teman-temanku yang lemah

Lemah menahan nafsu dan godaan Iblis

yang dilaknatMu

Sehingga lupa pada perintahmu

Oh Tuhan kurniakanlah nurMu

kepada teman-temanku

sepertimana Engkau kurniakan nur

kepada hambaMu yang kerdil ini

(23:20 15/11/2009)